Hello JennyRN70. I know that meditating is very good for some people. However for me, when I try it and I'm the least bit manic, I can't concentrate on one thought and when I'm depressed and I try I just fall asleep LOL.
I have the same problem with Yoga. Manic, I can't sit still, depressed I fall over asleep LOL.
Both are great methods of get and keeping well if they work for you.
I know that you have had a long hard battle with your illness and I hope that you keep fighting and find something that works well for you soon. To keeping trying when nothing seems to work is very hard work and frustrating, often it's easier to just give up. Give yourself a pat on the back for all the effort that you have put in and keeping trying, someday you'll find what works. Take Care. paul m