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« on: August 02, 2016, 12:02:11 pm »
Hi my name is Kayla and I just turned 26 not too long ago. Sadkitty is a nickname I got in high school from my group of friends (it was one of many since there were multiple Kayla in my group of friends) I started having problems from a young age because of bullying. No matter how many times I moved they seemed to just get worse and worse. In high school things got really bad and I wanted so badly to reach out for help but the problem is I would have had to tell my family and I didn't want that added stress. I wasn't until I was almost 23 that I decided to talk to my family doctor. I've been on many different medications (thank goodness for health insurance) and after a while I started doing counselling. I got to a point where I stopped taking my medication and just did the counselling for a while. I stopped that after she decided to stop her private practice. I went a few months with nothing and thought that I was okay. Then unfortunately a few very negative events happened and I feel like I'm worse off then I was before which put me back into counselling last December. When I first started all this I lost almost all my friends and was afraid of the medication. Over the past few months I've slowly been getting better but I still feel like any small thing can set me off. With everything with my doctor she labelled me as just having a general mood disorder but I feel like there is more to it. I asked to be referred to a psychiatrist to be able to get a better diagnosis but that was several months ago and I've heard nothing. I'm almost at the point where I just want her to put me back on the last medication she had me on to see if that will help again. I find that because of everything I find myself reverting and keeping to myself a lot more then I used to. I was always kind of a introvert but I'm barely social anymore.
On a happier note though these are some things I enjoy music, photography, art, cooking, baking (I went to school for it), video games , pokemon go when I can get myself to leave my house and spending time with my littlest sister.