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« on: April 13, 2015, 11:35:57 pm »
My hubby has been sick since before xmas. Everything they have tried hasn't worked, and he is getting sicker by the day. He has gotten in line for the x-ray, ultra sound, blood work, CT scan. Made to feel like the pain is nothing telling us to come to the hospital if it gets worse then asking why did you come. Even one Doctor tell him that if he had taken a couple of Tylenol he might not have needed to come to the hospital. Tell us that there was nothing they could do until these last test are done and unless there is blood they would do nothing but come back if it gets worse. Why you won't do anything. Made me so mad.
Sometimes I think the internet is a curse as it allows you to look up things(symptoms) and then see all the things that could be wrong. He goes for the next round of test (colonoscopy and endoscope) on Thursday. We hope this will tell us what is wrong and while I want answers so that we can move on to treatment I am also so scared of what they are going to find.
I don't have a lot of close friends that I can talk to. The person I talk to is my hubby and I don't want him to worry any more than he already is. The thought of having to call my son who lives more than 3000 miles away to give him bad news is also on my mind. He and his wife are expecting their first and our 4th grandchild. The thought that we may not be able to go and see him is on my mind. So given all this it is no wonder that I am depressed
I have written and deleted this post so many times in the last few months not sure if I should express my fear. I also know I shouldn't worry about what I don't know yet but there are so very few things other than what I am worried about that it could be and it would be worse for them to tell us that they can't find anything wrong with him. It is so hard seeing his stomach bloating up _(adding 4 inches to his waistline) and the pain that he is in but still going to work everyday not wanting to use up his sick time just in case.
Hope know one minds me posting this but I had to tell someone how I feel