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General Discussion / flu shot
« on: December 23, 2014, 03:45:47 pm »
Hi everyone,

I can't seem to decide whether or not to have a flu shot. The health professionals say I should since I have a number of health issues. I am a senior.
I lean towards not having one.
Right now I am sick. I have a cold (dry throat and cough). Also have stomach flu. Frequent trips to bathroom. My head feels fuzzy and I am lethargic. I realize that when you are sick you cannnot have a flu shot.
Some people say that a lot of times the vaccine that the pharmaceutical companies come out with do not address the type of flus that are going around. The flu bug becomes stronger and fights harder against the vaccines.
I don't know if I am making sense.
I have only had a flu shot once. My doctor pushed me into it. Didn't seem to have any side effects.
Anyone have views on whether to get a flu shot. People for and against.


General Discussion / I am so ashamed of myself
« on: November 05, 2014, 11:59:07 am »
My son and daughter-in-law and my two grandchildren came to pick something up at my house. My eldest daughter was there also.

The tension between my son and daughter-in-law was super high. They had been fighting. They do this a lot.

My son is under a lot of stress. He is a labor foreman working on the new huge hospital in Humber. He has a crew that he has to instruct and about 12 supervisors who want things done. He gets very frustrated and takes what happens on the job home with him.

The grandkids were acting up a lot. They seemed to feel the tension. I don't know what was going on with my son but he  was staring at me and wouldn't drop his gaze. I was trying to talk to him about something and he wouldn't answer. He kept doing this staring thing. He just said he was extremely tired. I was frustrated and started shaking him. My granddaughter started shaking me. I told my family to get the grandchildren out of the room and I was going to beat my son up. I don't know what came over me.

At the present I think I am hypomanic. My pdoc is weening me off lithium by very little amounts. I am almost off of it. Need to get off. My kidneys are not functioning well. That is no excuse for attacking my son. Mind is racing. Want to do everything at once. Am having terrible dreams.

I am  very worried about my son. I phoned him a few times. Nothing unusual. I apologized twice for my actions. My son said it didn't matter. I said it does matter. It frigthens me. What am I capable of doing to people?

Extremely upset.


General Discussion / Worried about my son and his drinking alcohol
« on: October 14, 2014, 06:40:42 pm »
My son likes to drink alcohol. I believe he drinks a few beers most nights due to stress. On quite a few weekends now he drinks until he throws up or doesn't even remember what he did the next day.
I believe he probably suffers from bipolar like me. I would say he is trying to self-medicate himself. I have told him he could possibly be suffering from bipolar like me. He says he is not at all like me. He tells me that he will never be on the amount of pills that I am on. I think my son is scared. He has seen how I get when I am sick from being mentally ill.
What worries me is his children. They know how alcohol affects their Dad when he drinks. Should I tell the kids he can die from drinking too much? The kids already tell him that he will die if he keeps smoking. Will the kids follow by example and drink too much? My son, his wife and the wife's family all drink too much and often.
A worried Mother.

General Discussion / Thanksgiving is not always fun
« on: October 14, 2014, 11:54:06 am »
Hi everyone,

I am afraid I am going to do some ranting here.
The bright spot of my camping Thanksgiving weekend was my grandchildren & my two daughters.
I have a camping spot with my 2 daughters. My son, daughter-in-law and my 2 grandkids another site and my dauther-in-law's parents have a separate site. They bring their son and girlfrend and 2 dogs a mastif and beagle puppy.
All of us have a campfire at night together. Everyone gets drunk except for me (on too many drugs) and my 2 daughters who only drink a few wine coolers. These drunk people stagger around, become rude, loud, sometimes throwup. My son is one of these drunk people.
His kids already drink their juice and then pretend they are throwing up. A very bad example is being set for them.
Sunday we all have turkey dinner together. I don't enjoy this.
Saturday they have Halloween in the park and the kids get dressed up in their costumes and go around. Most campers decorate their sites for Halloween. That is another fun part of the evening. The owner of the mastif has the dog on a chain. The dog goes nuts with all the kids in costumes and masks. The owner says he won't bite anyone. I think he will the way he growls and carries on. He is protecting his territory.
My daughter-in-law's brother makes his money by doing something very illegal.
 I am probably bullying him. I call him a wuss and a baby. His mother and live in girl friend do everything for him. He is 30 yrs. old. They cook for him, do laundry. His Mom always cut up his food into his twenties. He demands that one of the women make a sandwich for him at night. His mother or sister usually cave in and make him one. He asked me and I said you are asking the wrong person.
I was in tears yesterday and this morning about the weekend. I called Halton Coast. The lady listened to me. She informed me this was a crisis line. More for people that were suicidal, etc. She gave me three numbers for distress lines. I have tried them in the past. They are always busy. I know where she was coming from about it being a crisis line and I may be blocking out someone's call who needed help now. When she told me this I said why should I bother phoning then.
I believe my son might be self medicating himself with alchol and cigarettes because he suffers from bipolar like me. He denies it.
I phoned the crisis line. I didn't want to burden my kids with my problems.
I will see my caseworker tomorow. I just had to talk to someone. In the past I talked to my husband.
I apologize for being so long winded.
This forum helps so much by being able to rant and rave.
Thanks to anyone for reading this.


General Discussion / Thanksgiving
« on: October 07, 2014, 01:07:34 am »
Hi everyone,

Can you put into one sentence what is most important to you to thank for?

Mine is my loving family!

Dragonfly   :-*

General Discussion / Schedules
« on: September 09, 2014, 09:17:45 am »
Hi everyone,

Does anyone stay on a rigid schedule. I know this is hard when you are suffering from mania or depression.

I never seem to have my getting up, breakfast, lunch, supper and going to bed at around the same time. It always seems to be at different times. There is always something to do so I stretch these times.  How important is it to keep on a rigid schedule?
 I do suffer from insulin dependent diabetes so I have to eat three meals a day or I don't feel well. Usually have a snack in the evening so I can get through the night without my sugar level going too low.
When you are going out or have a social event it is very hard to stay on a rigid schedule.
This is a different topic. I am spending too much time on my computer. My mind is racing. There are so many things to do. I feel I need to do them all which is unrealistic. Can't seem to pace myself. Everything has to be done yesterday. Anyone has those feelings.

General Discussion / Donations to charities
« on: September 06, 2014, 11:55:05 am »
I saw somewhere a list of the charities that people can donate to. Probably the most common ones (whatever that means). There are many many charities.
It listed how much went to administration and how much went to research. I believe cancer was half and half. Does anyone have the list.
It is tough to figure out which one to donate too. You can donate to more than one. Cancer, mental illness, diabetes and heart disease has touched my life.
Another one I think about is the humane society for animals. The homeless people. Single mothers with children. How do you choose.
My mother always said to my Dad instead of donating to so many charities why don't you give the money to our kids. I think the same way up to a point as my Mom.

Just some thoughts!


General Discussion / Ice bucket challenge.
« on: August 24, 2014, 09:11:39 pm »
Has anyone participated in this ice bucket challenge. I guess it is a great way to raise money for ALS. I emphasize with people that have this disease and have died from it. I only know of a few people that have died from it and they were not close to me.
What about the other diseases like cancer, mental illness, diabetes and heart disease. These diseases have touched people very close to me. I would rather donate to these charities. A lot of people are probably going to critize me for my views.
This ice bucket challenge has taken off. Do people really know what ALS is?


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