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General Discussion / How is everyone doing?
« on: April 03, 2019, 10:43:46 am »
Hi everyone,

 How is everyone doing.

I must say it has been a roller coaster for me. Things have happened in my family that have left me very sad and upset. I am working through it with the support of many people. I will be okay.

 This weather hasn't helped either. Spring is on the way and that always makes me feel better.


General Discussion / having a bit of a tough time right now
« on: June 17, 2018, 08:44:52 pm »
Hi everyone,
  This time is difficult for me. It was my wedding anniversary yesterday. It would have been 46 years. My husband and I made it to 39 years.

Father's day brings back many memories.

At the end of this month it is the anniversary of my husband's passing. I can't believe it has been 7 years.

Although I miss my husband every day I have much to be thankful for. My family, friends and the professional health care givers who help me.

My son is almost divorced. He now lives with a woman that really cares about him. His partner has a daughter who I have adopted as my grandchild. My son also has a daughter and son. They get along so well.

On the whole I am doing quite well.

I hope everyone else is doing well or the best that they can.

Again almost afraid to post this. Don't want this to be all about me.


General Discussion / How is everyone doing?
« on: April 12, 2018, 10:46:30 am »
Hi everyone,

How is everyone doing? Getting sick of winter?

I miss hearing from members of the forum. To name a few: Luckylou, Soozan, Rich, Senacron man. I am sorry if I have left anyone out. My memory isn't the best anymore.

As many members have said. Anyone who would like to post is very welcome to. We are a friendly, caring, non-judgmental group. We like to support each other. We learn things from each other. If you post I am sure we will learn something valuable from you. This forum has helped me a great deal. I consider these people on the forum as my friends.

It was very hard for me to post when I first joined the forum. Now I realize that no one is going to judge me and only support me. I was always very scared I would write the wrong thing and hurt someone.

If anyone feels like it please post. We would be glad to hear from you.


Hi everyone,

Unfortunately in the evening of Easter Sunday, April 1, I had a full blown panic attack. My daughter phoned 911 and the paramedics took me to the hospital to have me checked out. I was afraid I was having a stroke or heart attack. My arms and back were sore. I now realize it was from doing too much. Lifting, etc. I am afraid of having a stroke or heart attack because I am an insulin dependent diabetic, have chronic kidney disease and suffer from bipolar mental disorder. I see doctors for all these health problems and have had many tests.

The doctor that saw me at the hospital was very good. He had my heart checked and had an x-ray done of my chest. Everything seemed to check out. I felt bad because my two daughters came to the hospital and my son and partner. I feel I need to be the strong one.

I realize now that I have been trying to do too much and expecting too much of myself. I seem to go in cycles. I am feeling quite well, then start doing too much, then crash. I seem to do this over and over again. Anyone else do that? I forget my limitations.

I have to step back from worrying and doing things for my big kids (3 plus my son's partner) and 3 grandchildren. I have to realize that they can do things on their own. They are very capable at this age.

I am my own worst enemy. I want things done yesterday. I have to take better care of myself or I am not good to anyone and mostly myself. I feel selfish when I don't pitch in. I guess I have to consider my age and my health problems. I can't do what they do. It is very frustrating to not do what I used to do.

I have to be more receptive to change. Things aren't always going to be the way they used to be.

I think I have said enough about me. There are a lot of I's in my post. How is everyone else doing?


General Discussion / hard time of year
« on: April 12, 2018, 10:12:50 am »
Hi everyone,

I find this a very difficult time of year. I don't know if anyone can relate. I feel more down. I want winter to be over. I can't wait to go outside and go camping. Maybe we don't get enough sunshine.


General Discussion / having problems replying to people on forum
« on: April 12, 2018, 10:08:05 am »
Hi everyone,

I can get on the website for the forum. I am having trouble replying. I couldn't remember my password to becoming active again on the forum.
Someone from MDAO has helped me with this problem by giving me a password. Now I can get back in.


General Discussion / How is everyone doing
« on: January 25, 2018, 07:41:50 pm »
Hi everyone,

Just wondering how everyone is doing. On the whole I am doing well. I still have my ups and downs. I am not complaining though.

I think everyone that is a mother or father worries about their children. Today my son went to the hospital. He was in real pain. The doctors found out he has a large kidney stone. He is a strong man though. So glad that my son has a girlfriend who was with him and really cares about him. He and his ex were separated a few years ago.

I went for the first time to a group from MDAO that does crafts. There were maybe about 10 of us and I sat beside an older gentleman. His mind was very sharp and I really enjoyed his humor. We talked more than we did crafts. It was very enjoyable.  I was very tired at the end of it. When I feel up to it I will probably go again. It is on every wednesday morning. I have a support worker who drives me. I don't like driving in my busy city. My concentration is not good.

Please feel free to post. We are a caring, non-judgemental group. Everyone's experiences are valuable. We can learn from each other. I have had great support on this forum and have learned a lot from others. This has greatly helped me.


General Discussion / sponser you
« on: October 18, 2017, 08:54:54 pm »
Hi Paul,
I would like to sponser you for the fundraiser. I receive the email. When I click on sponser me it comes up page cannot be displayed. I don't know what is going wrong.

General Discussion / blood test results as related to health problems
« on: September 17, 2017, 11:27:43 am »
Hi everyone,

This post has to do with two posts on the forum which have been addressed previously.

I went over my blood test results that I obtained from the lab that my kidney specialist ordered for me due to my chronic kidney disease.

These results made so much more sense to me. This is due to the fact that I received the spiral books on living with reduced kidney function and living with kidney failure. These explain the different functions in the body to look for when you have this disease. Once I looked at the results of the blood test I could see the normal results of a certain test and also see where my results were low or high. Some of these functions have already been described by my kidney specialist which has also helped greatly.

I hope I am making sense. Thanks again Paul for the websites on learning more about the kidneys and diseases. For me it always helps

when I know more about what is going on with my health. I don't always like the results but at least I know generally what is going on. Believe me I certainly don't know everything. I hope I am not sounding conceited.


General Discussion / information for people with chronic kidney disease
« on: September 17, 2017, 11:11:08 am »
Hi everyone,
I don't know if anyone is suffering from chronic kidney disease. I don't know if this is relevant to this forum. I believe I developed chronic kidney disease due to the use of lithium for 30 years. (I am now off of it) This may not be true for other people who are on lithium. I am also an insulin dependent diabetic type II which has a great effect on the kidneys.

Thank you Paul for the websites that you provided for information on chronic kidney disease. I contacted the kidney foundation and they sent me two excellent spiral bound books - one living with reduced kidney function and two living with kidney failure. The foundation also mentioned a forum that I could join. I have joined. There is also a website for eating right for the kidneys.  This information has been very helpful to me.


General Discussion / results of blood test
« on: September 08, 2017, 11:16:25 am »
Hi everyone,
  I just had a blood test for my kidney and diabetes specialists The girl at the lab advised me that I could get my results. So I signed up and received my results. Most of it was greek to me. Has anyone else done this before? Is it really worth doing? I had six vials taken. The results show the number of the result for that particular test and showed what the number should be. Some of the tests were fine.

Any thoughts on this?


General Discussion / welcome to anyone that wants to post here
« on: August 30, 2017, 11:22:45 am »
We welcome anyone that wants to post here. We are a supportive group. We are very caring, non-judgemental. I have had a lot of help here and it has been a pleasure to communicate here with people. I have developed friends here.

If you have thoughts and information to offer it also helps us greatly. We are non-threatning and keep things confidential.

Please post. We would all be happy if you did.


Hi everyone.

How is everyone doing. Are you and your wife all packed up for the move. Are you going to be living in the same vicinity as to where you have lived.

How is it going with you Peace, Stenacron man and Peter.

Sorry if I have left anyone out.


General Discussion / having very bad dreams and fluctuating sugar levels
« on: August 24, 2017, 07:42:56 pm »
My kidney specialist has told me to watch that my sugar levels do not go down too far. I am on insulin and my kidneys are not functioning well.
I think this fluctuation in sugar levels are affecting my moods. Maybe this is creating my bad dreams. I am going to see my kidney specialist this month. So will discuss these symptoms with him. Also will be seeing my diabetic specialist and pdoc next month.
Does anyone here with diabetes experience mood changes?

I am probably focusing too much on myself lately. Please bear with me. (I can't seem to spell these days)


As some of you know I suffer from bipolar II. I have had this illness since about 12 years old (onset of puberty). I am now 66 years old.

I hoped that this mental illness would not manifest itself in one of my children. I have 3. Two daughters with my son in the middle.

I have suspected that my son is most like me. He is separated from his wife. She wanted the separation. She was cheating on him. Now he is in a relationship with another woman who has a daughter. My son has two kids. His ex is a two faced b*t**h who only cares about herself. Even puts herself before the kids most times. Narcisstic.

My son has always had his ups and downs. It is becoming more evident as he is going through some very traumatic situations. His girlfriend has not had a very easy childhood. She has been single with her daughter for a very long time. My son has had a very hard time showing his feelings to her. My son runs to me and talks to me when things are not going well in his relationship. I have told him he has to talk to his girlfriend and not me. My son is really starting to open up to her.

My son is finally saying that he is very much like me. Starting to recognize that he probably has a mental illness like me. He says as much as he does not want to admit it. I wished so much that none of my kids would have this. I hope that my two grandchildren don't have it.

This is probably getting off the subject. I spoke to my sister on the phone today. Her, myself and my other siblings (we were six kids in the family) realized that my Mother had mental problems. My sister said that my Mother was wierd. That hurts. I shouldn't take it personally. She does not understand mental illness nor does she try.

Probably some of you on this forum who suffer from a mental illness also have children or relatives or friends with a mental illness. I worry about my son so much. (Worry about my other kids and grandchildren too). How do you handle this?


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