HI Peace
I did a post about (OCD) and (OCPD) you need to read.
https://mooddisorders.ca/forum/index.php?topic=260.0Treatment of (OCD) is directly reflected by direct treatment of (GAD) general anxiety disorder. In order stop,prevent, or limit (OCD) actions one must first right away as you wake up concur anxiety itself. For the first 10 minutes 95% of studied individuals indicated anxiety free, the brain wakes up slower than you think especially if medicated. The (OC) components of (OCD) are feed by anxiety first, an then beings the cycle that continuously repeats itself.
I Take diazepam 5 mg right after waking for this very same reason. Concurring Anxiety ASAP controls (OCD).
If you are desperate as you said, communicate with me I will talk to you everyday and try to help you. Stop spending money on things that do not help. Searching for something you have to pay for is not helping. True understanding will help you.
If you like I will be your online support group through private PM's i am (OCD) and (OCPD)
Buddy Mack.