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General Discussion / non-medicated bipolar and marriage
« on: October 14, 2014, 03:35:21 PM »
I am literally going through a horrible time right now.. I am awaiting approval for ODSP and have no medication coverage at the moment. Well after 12 years together me and my partner got married a few weeks ago and it has gone down hill since.. I am trying to control my temper but it is becoming harder and harder to do..

It started today with him getting mad at me for something that was out of my control (picking up an item while the weather is crappy out and we do not drive) It started with the normal "what do you want me to do about it?" type of question. I see it as since it is horrible out then we will pass on the item and find another at a later date. Well this turned into him getting mad at me and then me loosing it. I asked him to stop multiple times as i knew that i would not be able to take that for long before an outburst. I told him that i would not tolerate being treated like that and then he brings up the well if you want to leave then feel free to..

I have been married before and it did not turn out well and now i fear that it will happen again and that I am a failure. I am honestly trying to do my best but it never seems to work out in my favor. It just seems like we were fine until we got married. He keeps saying well it is hard to live with you while you are not medicated. This i can understand as i have a hard enough time dealing with what is in my head all by myself. I know i am not the only one to go through this and feel this way but at the same time i feel very alone.

I cannot talk to him about it as when i do, he only gives me one or two word conversations and it leave me even more confused, upset and alone.

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